Only way

There are days that I think death is the only solution to problems. I am getting darker... I dunno why.

No superman

Failure is part of life.

I still remember my last greatest failure in life happened when I was 16 years old. The day that i received my 'O' level results. Only comfort was from my tears that streamed down non-stop. For all the effort and expectations from my family, I did not manage to make it to NJC. It seemed like my world was crashing and there was no other way out for me. It took me sometime before I picked myself up again and reassessed my options.

That was frightful as I did not understand what failure meant at that time. All through my secondary school days, I was known to be one of the better ones of the lot and with big dreams.

The good thing was that i turned that disappointment into a force that propelled me through my Polytechnic days and eventually ending up in CBS, Perth. Looking back, there were no regrets and maybe was a good thing that I did not make it to NJC.

I have been learning to take failures in my stride and have improved a lot more from school days.

Failure is part of life and a failure is only how you look at it and in which perspective.

I am now in one of my darkest moment in life and it almost seem that there is no way out for me now. Many thoughts swimming through my mind and I don't know how I can make it any better. Help seems bleak but I am holding on an looking forward to a sign to guide me out of this soon.

Anyone out there?

The no-change

The weather is beautiful in Singapore today. Almost like a spring in Perth.

Makes me wonder how are things in Perth and if it the same as how I left it. There have been just too many changes in my life of late and I just simply want to escape to somewhere that I can appreciate a "no-change".

Missing you.

So I speak Cantonese

Had my first business conversation today in Cantonese. I tried avoiding this for the longest time as I was worried that they will judge my Cantonese. But what the hell, it was better than speaking to them in English and trying to let them understand what I was trying to tell them.

Small victory to me on this fine day. I miss HK all of a sudden.

Paperwork!

I hate paperwork! Seems like never ending and just applying a Manhatten card comes with so many attached cards and worse.... Documents. I am just gonna throw all of them away. Might even throw the cards away. Why do I need so many cards? Applied for 1 and 3 more came with it... Worse, a cheque book!

The Love of The Hawthorn Tree

During my recent trip to Beijing, I stumbled upon a mega sized movie poster for this new Zhang Yimou's latest film. At first glance, the poster seems to have told it all - the love between 2 teenagers. Not expecting much of it except the fact that it is all but another artistic work from Zhang, I came across the novel in the bookstore. The cover caught my attention and i thought that I should just have a read and see if the story is as compelling. The start seems long and draggy and I almost gave up on the story but my persistence paid off when the story unfolded itself in many layers and the beauty of purest love in a time of civil unrest.

So close with almost being done with the book and I already know the ending. Completely smitten by the story and looking forward to seeing this on the big screens.

My Favorite phrase:

我不能等你一年零一个月了，

我也不能等你到二十五岁了，

但我会等你一辈子。。。。。。

A place above the rest

Today I realised that this is getting very serious. The whole idea of building a place for travellers and having to care for the safety and security for 26 pax in my premise. Having said that, I also know that if I do no take the first step to doing this, I can never handle my ultimate dream of owning a boutique hotel with a classy facade.

Brace yourself Adrian! You know you can do this and nothing should stand in your way.

Tonight I feel sad

Sometimes disappointments are part of life... ... But when it happens way too often, it becomes a curse.

The idea of a home

Funnily it has been 2.5 weeks since I took over the new apartment. From purchase to completion, I never once felt the importance of being a home owner. To me it is just another one of my buys. But having said that, today I finally feel the importance and that I am in a new league of the game.

Better start acting like one.... ... (Actually...just have to pay bills and bills and more bills......)

Mother nature wrecks havoc