Shrouded in uncertainties, it seems that my mood has taken on a roller coaster ride. Everyday is just a waiting game. Hoping that the next phone call would be from a repuatable company that I badly want to get an interview with. But Alas! All I can do is wait...wait...and more waiting.
Trying so very hard to keep my spirits up high, I think I am morphing into selclusion. Feeling more and more withdrawn from each passing day. And not wondering where the compass needle will lead me eventually. The confidence that once took pride in me is now fading into the sorrows of my inexperience. No matter how brilliant I am, I still need good relevant experience to secure a post in my "perfect" first job. AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH?!?!? Or is it simply a wait. Maybe it is simply the application process that is taking longer than expected. Deadlines of applications in big companies are at least 2 weeks long. They do not seem to be in a rush to hire, but I am in a rush to get interviewed.
On a higher note, I have been getting interviews. Interviews that I sometimes hesitate in appearing for. They are afterall not even close to my "dream" job. Till date, I get 100% employment after every interview. And this means that I have to have a cover letter of rejection ready at hand. What an irony. I try creating the perfect cover letter and resume, but at the same time devise a letter of rejection that is politically correct. I feel horrible for having to submit a letter of rejection. I feel bad to be even say "no". That is my weakness. Finding it hard to say "no" makes my life more miserable than saying "yes". I use such interviews to find my worth and polishing up my rusty interview skills. Maybe it is not that rusty afterall. I can sense the far more important interviews just around the corner, I can smell it. I must be ready for them, as I already had an experience during a phone interview. I must not show my weakness, but display only my strength. Must not find interviewers with weird American accents daunt me. And questions that pop out of nowhere. I must be prepared for the most difficult interviewers.
Keep my strength and hope alive. Believing that I can only get better with failures and not be beaten by the strong. Only I can help myself now. No one else can. In everything that I do the mind plays an important part. Mind over matter. Release the Wolverine in me! (Yay! X-Men 3 is in town!)
Trying so very hard to keep my spirits up high, I think I am morphing into selclusion. Feeling more and more withdrawn from each passing day. And not wondering where the compass needle will lead me eventually. The confidence that once took pride in me is now fading into the sorrows of my inexperience. No matter how brilliant I am, I still need good relevant experience to secure a post in my "perfect" first job. AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH?!?!? Or is it simply a wait. Maybe it is simply the application process that is taking longer than expected. Deadlines of applications in big companies are at least 2 weeks long. They do not seem to be in a rush to hire, but I am in a rush to get interviewed.
On a higher note, I have been getting interviews. Interviews that I sometimes hesitate in appearing for. They are afterall not even close to my "dream" job. Till date, I get 100% employment after every interview. And this means that I have to have a cover letter of rejection ready at hand. What an irony. I try creating the perfect cover letter and resume, but at the same time devise a letter of rejection that is politically correct. I feel horrible for having to submit a letter of rejection. I feel bad to be even say "no". That is my weakness. Finding it hard to say "no" makes my life more miserable than saying "yes". I use such interviews to find my worth and polishing up my rusty interview skills. Maybe it is not that rusty afterall. I can sense the far more important interviews just around the corner, I can smell it. I must be ready for them, as I already had an experience during a phone interview. I must not show my weakness, but display only my strength. Must not find interviewers with weird American accents daunt me. And questions that pop out of nowhere. I must be prepared for the most difficult interviewers.
Keep my strength and hope alive. Believing that I can only get better with failures and not be beaten by the strong. Only I can help myself now. No one else can. In everything that I do the mind plays an important part. Mind over matter. Release the Wolverine in me! (Yay! X-Men 3 is in town!)
2 comments:
Counting down! Yay!
don't fret too much. give yourself half a year. dream jobs take time to find their dream candidates. but then, if nothing comes buy, just hop on something for a year so that you can get the experience you need to get onto the job you want. job experience is like a qualification in itself - as much as the paper you took 3-4 years in uni to obtain is.
but really, if you think you've got what it takes, you have to gamble. dream jobs do not appear all the time, just as dream talents are a steal. but if after a year you still don't find what you want, maybe you're in the wrong market...
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