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Reserved

Do it the lawful way.

I really dread the idea of having to serve my reservist only after less than 3 months since my ORD date. It was pretty much intimidating to know that I have to be in camp in some deserted area like Tuas.

Drove down real early this morning to camp and went straight to see the CO of the unit. Had a brief conversation with him about my job search and interviews this week. I sorta acted like a pro and all....very PR as usual. And he granted my deferment.

Yay! I am a free man for now.

And who says that you need to throw MC and all to escape the fate of a reservist man?

A weekend in Singapore

The weekend came as fast as it passed. Really glad that I spent it the way I wanted it to be. Nothing more and nothing less. Caught X-Men 3 on friday, dinner with some friends at Tambuah Mas on Saturday and many drinks at the food court of Cineleisure with BL. We talked about everything under the sky and felt very much at ease with his presence. He was practicing his dance moves at the Youth Park round the corner. Spent sunday with my friends from NYP. Did a lot of catching up with them at Juliana's wedding. A pity that JW was not able to join us.

Bride and Bride Groom

Xiu Yan, Gina and Nicholas

Mr. Roy Chan

A group Picture

Lucia and moi

Nightmares

Nightmares can be really scary! Maybe to some people, nightmares are about ghost haunting stories that infest the mind, with gruesome monsters prowling the streets. But in my case, it is not! Extended over 2 consecutive nights, I am worried that something is bothering me so badly that my mind has no rest. When we sleep, it is not a good thing if we experience dreams. I want to talk about my dream as I believe that by talking about it, the likelihood of it happening will be halved.

Night 1 Dream 1

Driving along the road with a friend beside me. As I was meandering down a slope, the brakes suddenly stopped working. I had absolutely no control of the car at this stage. As I was frantically trying to pump the brakes, I crashed into a tree. The crash happened at night.

**The pain that is physical enough to have killed me.

Night 2 Dream 2

The worst installment and hopefully the last installment happened in a car as well. This time, I was driving along little India. As I was cruising my car along the deserted road, I realised something was amiss. But I still very much wanted to be on the road. Being a new driver and all, I just loved the fact that that are no irritating taxi drivers and inconsiderate drivers around. Suddenly it made sense as to why there were hardly any other cars around. There were police cars all over. Argh! And the Indians were attacking each other plus the policemen. Goodness! I was embroiled in a possible riot. The Indians were holding onto battons and Parangs. I was so frightened. Holding on hard to the steering, I was driving at a considerably slow speed. Everything suddenly seemed to be like in slow motion. People spewing blood on the car and such. I knew I had to stay calm.

Noticing some people still shopping on the side amazed me. And I wonder where they gathered the courage, and as I passed a fruit stall I saw BT buying durians there. I was so worried, I pulled over! I went down and asked what he was doing here. To cut the story short, I told him I would give him a lift back. So weird, coz I did not even asked if he was driving that day. And I went back into the car to wait for him.

The next image that greeted me was painful enough to have killed me.....

Da Vinci Code was definately not a movie spun out of proportion. After hearing varied feedbacks from different people around me, I almost wanted to give the movie a miss. But I was glad I did not allow fluffy reviews to dissuade me.

I for one had no first encounter of the book that swept millions of copy off the bookshelf. The only time I had a chance with the book was when I read the first few pages of it and put back where it was. To me, I did not like the beginning. Maybe, it was too dark a story for me.


Ron Howard did a good job with the direction of a story that disturbed the whole world. His take; simplicity and tastefully brought out plot. The book had all the details of the story, but the director had only 2 hours to tell the gripping tale that spans across Europe. To me, the movie was like any other fictional movie that I have watched. i.e Spiderman, Batman, Bewitch. There is definately no cause for worry towards the religious groups. The story is simply-You Believe What you Want to Believe.

Towards the end of the movie, a lady blurted out, "what a load of crap". I was offended, not because I believed the story. But simply cause she interrupted the show. They should just leave comments to themselves and discern from what is fictional and non-fictional.

On a ligter note, the backdrop for every scene in the movie scored an "A" plus with me. I love London and definately Paris. The buildings, the paintings brought me back to the time when I was admiring painting by painting and building by building whilst in Paris & London. Tasteful!

Weekend Feast

The weekend was a good one. Nothing fanciful but all sincere. Watched a play at the Stamford House, Waterloo Street on saturday. And spent Sunday catching up with some old friends. Zhi Rong wanted to celebrate his Birthday and took us to lunch at Crytsal Jade Kitchen. A sumptuous 8 course spread filled the table and tickled our taste buds.

The day ended with a movie at Cineleisure. Over the hedge was definately not an over-rated movie. The animations were cute and the storyline was delicious. I would definately recommend it to anyone feeling down and out. It brought back a bit of cheer into my life and made me laugh like no yesterday.

Good Old Buddies!
The Birthday boi and moi

Tea break, Coffee break, Give me a break.

Such a nice morning to sleep-in, but no! Some people just wants to call you at this hour to engage in a Phone-interview with you. And I had to pretend that I have been awake since 6am, waiting for their call.

Anyway, at the end of the interview he wanted me to rate the interview I had with him. Feeling humble as always (roll-eyeball). I gave myself 7/10. And he was relentless in asking why I rated 7 for me-self. I had to come up with some cock & bull excuse. And eventually he thought I was worth more than 7 points. (I know) Hahaha.....but he is not giving me another interview. Just for the fact that I am not a fit to his department's work culture. People out there are just looking for tea-break chat I tell you. *Blah*

The day Wolverine turns Gay.

Shrouded in uncertainties, it seems that my mood has taken on a roller coaster ride. Everyday is just a waiting game. Hoping that the next phone call would be from a repuatable company that I badly want to get an interview with. But Alas! All I can do is wait...wait...and more waiting.

Trying so very hard to keep my spirits up high, I think I am morphing into selclusion. Feeling more and more withdrawn from each passing day. And not wondering where the compass needle will lead me eventually. The confidence that once took pride in me is now fading into the sorrows of my inexperience. No matter how brilliant I am, I still need good relevant experience to secure a post in my "perfect" first job. AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH?!?!? Or is it simply a wait. Maybe it is simply the application process that is taking longer than expected. Deadlines of applications in big companies are at least 2 weeks long. They do not seem to be in a rush to hire, but I am in a rush to get interviewed.

On a higher note, I have been getting interviews. Interviews that I sometimes hesitate in appearing for. They are afterall not even close to my "dream" job. Till date, I get 100% employment after every interview. And this means that I have to have a cover letter of rejection ready at hand. What an irony. I try creating the perfect cover letter and resume, but at the same time devise a letter of rejection that is politically correct. I feel horrible for having to submit a letter of rejection. I feel bad to be even say "no". That is my weakness. Finding it hard to say "no" makes my life more miserable than saying "yes". I use such interviews to find my worth and polishing up my rusty interview skills. Maybe it is not that rusty afterall. I can sense the far more important interviews just around the corner, I can smell it. I must be ready for them, as I already had an experience during a phone interview. I must not show my weakness, but display only my strength. Must not find interviewers with weird American accents daunt me. And questions that pop out of nowhere. I must be prepared for the most difficult interviewers.

Keep my strength and hope alive. Believing that I can only get better with failures and not be beaten by the strong. Only I can help myself now. No one else can. In everything that I do the mind plays an important part. Mind over matter. Release the Wolverine in me! (Yay! X-Men 3 is in town!)

Hunk Honk!

Trust me! I had no intention or whatsoever in being embroiled in the preview of Mister Singapore. But anyway, here are the pictures that were taken at the fashion display.

The guys were less than presentable. Only a couple of them look decent enough.

*Disclaimer: Photos were not taken by me, I only sponsored the camera.

Beijing 2006

Yes, I do realise that I have not updated my blog since the longest time. Do bear with me as I am currently looking for a job and the idea of blogging just doesn't seem to make sense.

Beijing is a truly vibrant city. And I can see that the capital of the next super power is on full gear to usher guests from all over the world in the year 2008. Constructions are everywhere and the citizens are all making an effort to make the city a better place to live in.

So much to speak of Beijing and so little time. Words can never be a good description of what the capital is now. The pobable word that gets close and sums up the city, MASSIVE!

I will leave my readers to some pictures that I have taken. They may be a bit confusing to look at with little explaination but do drop comments and maybe I can help.

Cheers